REPETITIVE

I should have known that love will only destroy me once again.
That wall that I have built throughout this time is cracking.
Each time I go closer to him, I can hear it crack.
It wouldn't take a long time before it finally does breaks down.
Collapsing. Letting those dark feelings in. Poisoning my thoughts, poking my feelings.
I DON'T WANT ANY REPEATS FROM THE PAST.
I've had my share of an ocean of tears.
Cried till I there wasn't any tear left in my system.

Remembering it would be painful.
So, possibly I'll be thinking twice on the outcome of this meeting.
I'm scared. Terrified.
I need assurance. That's all...